I'm baaaaack :3 Inspired by Chiaki to arise from the dead and finally get another post done.
Sooooooooo. Wow, this actually feels great to be blogging again! I can just let all my feelings gooooooooooo~
Wow. Okay. Anywhoo. Today was the last day of exams! I'm so happy :3 My french exam absolutely sucked, though. It's not that I didn't study, it's just that what I needed to study for... If you get what I mean.
There are some girls in my French class that, don't get me wrong, are really nice and stuff, but all they do is giggle all throughout the class. I honestly don't mind French, but having somebody giggle in a super high-pitched voice for an hour and ten minutes, regardless of how ticked my teacher is, just makes for a bad experience. Because of their incessant giggling, my teacher hardly taught anything... For example, those COI and COD things? We learned what they are about a week before the exam, but we weren't taught how to apply them in a sentence, or how to tell which one is used when, or how to use them versus using le, la, l' or les. This is a completely different language, it would be kind of nice to know what important crap like that means.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaand I'm ranting again.
I find myself being really mean lately. Today I insulted a guy I barely knew... Behind his back, but still... Even Flavia commented on my nasty remark. To be honest, it's kind of scary. I hate being mean, but sometimes it just comes out like that when I'm frustrated with my life.
Just on Friday, my dad told me something that absolutely broke my heart, and it's all I can think about now, which is probably why I've been a total b**** lately.
*This is getting a bit too personal for a blog, but whatevs. I really need to get it out somehow.*
Exams, what my dad told me, homesickness, friend issues... It's really starting to take a toll on me. The other day, when I was taking the train home, I caught myself about to cry. In public. For those of you who know me well, this almost never happens to me unless I break a bone or something. Crying is not my thing.
Dang it, I'm even starting to write poetry again.
This is random, and not as depressing (thankfully), but I've recently realized that materials no longer make me happy. At Christmas, I got a ton of stuff; lots of money, art supplies, hair accessories, jewelry, perfume... And yet, I wasn't happy. It sure wasn't that I was ungrateful (kay, I was overwhelmed at everybody's kindness and generosity), it's just that I felt that I would trade all of my presents for just a month to spend with my family and friends.
I haven't seen the vast majority of my friends back home for over seven months now... A lot of them have changed, some of them going through depression or becoming extremely arrogant. Apparently one of my close friends is on the verge of becoming a wannabe hooker, and my other friends are drifting apart from each other. It sucks how some people change for the worse when they hit High School.
I've changed alot too, but I *think* it's a good change. I'm not a pushover anymore, I don't retaliate the way I used to, I'm better with school... Stuff like that.
Shucks. This blog is the opposite of what I wanted it to be. It's all dark and depressing... *Puts on some happy japanese music and continues*
There we goooooo <3 ^_^
Happiness!
I love you guys. I really do.
Like, I just wanna hug all everybody that's read my blog before. Even if they hated it.
I just wanna go outside and dance!
Wait. No, Sabrina. Not at 11:15 at night.
Bad Idea.
Okee. Dancing in my room will suffice :3
...
I have been fulfilled.
I love makeup, butterflies, cherries, pink, polka dots, Studio Ghibli, Rapunzel, TV, frilly stuff, dresses, nail polish, tea, cake, cookies, cinnamon rolls (<3), toaster waffles, cream puffs, caramel, ink bottles, paper that doesn't buckle, bristol board, lotion, sugar plums, vitamins, rhinestones, earrings, jewelry organizers, jeans, boots, my friends, my family, *coughthatsupercuteguythatIseealotcough*, straightening irons, shampoo, conditioner, peach-scented soap, rainbow brushes, and tweezers.
Oh gosh. I think I'd better stop before I start puking up rainbows.
Looooove youuuuuuuuuuuuu <3
